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Today, I had a amazing time with my TOP crew, Beatrice, Jam & Daddy Rizal x3
They heard that I was going to be transfer to PS TOP in march.
But then, it was cute for them to say that they miss me. HAHA.
Oh gosh! SO TOUCHED! :3

Working at Vivo TOP for almost 3 months now,
I really felt extremely happy, crazy, sad, wild, oh man! Can't explain that feeling!
The teamwork we built, the fun and laughter, everyday was like a mad day :D

I'm not sure whether I will be there only for march or permanently,
but i hope that it's only temporary.
I would miss them too if I'm out to PS branch.
But no matter what, my heart stays with them,
as TOP VIVO CREW and the craziest team of all!

Wait for me to be back guys!
I'm not as if I am dying. HAHA.
But I'LL BE BACK YO (:

Lastly, WE ARE THE BEST! VIVO TOP FTW :3
LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH, THANKS FOR BRINGING THE LAUGHTER AND SUNSHINE TO MY LIFE! I APPRECIATE IT (; UNTIL APRIL, LET'S REUNION AGAIN ^^

Well, gonna head to bed now.
Opening tomorrow!
bye peeps.

Labels: TOP CREW BEST

Finally getting back on my blog.
Not much time to update though.
I have so much to speak in the past but yet, I'm still dwelling on my dad's death.
I used to be a talkative child and a friend.
But everything changes and I have to learn how to be independent.

It really sucks to be broke always.
Have to seriously start planning my cash properly.
I have too many things i wanna fulfill right now, need more time.
Not going to go further explaining what's my plan.
Just hope it will work then.

Ever since working at TOP, I have get lots of help from my colleague.
It's really nice working with them and joke with them.
Special thanks to Jam and Riz daddy.
If it was not them, I wouldn't lift my energy and emotion quickly after so many things that happen.

As for home, I really hope to leave as soon as possible.
Couldn't hear further more of these bullshit.

To dearest mum,
I have tried to forgive you even though i don't want to.
I apologized to you once just because I wanted my life back to normal without awkwardness and being seen as a transparent human being.
Just wanted to let you know, I don't fuckin' care with your existence anymore.
I have always thought you will change, what about now?
Dad left, you have your own life, My existence to you is just another invisible item.
I'm just giving face to stay so. You can call me a thick-skinned daughter or whatever, but until that day when I'm more stable with income, I will leave for good.
Thanks for the care you gave.

From your unfilial daughter

Lately, not really myself. But well, life goes on.
No point dwelling so much.
And I have been dreaming of K lately too.
Is it a good thing or bad thing? Don't really understand.

Am really looking forward for my 21st.
Amazing that we don't have to die in year 2012. Haha. Jokes.
Tomorrow is CLEANSING DAY!
Time to throw those unwanted things away.
Erase it all.

Gonna finish my movie now.
Shall update soon.

Labels: I still miss you.

Sometime i just don't know what i am doing now.
Just let me be silence for a moment.

Labels: Silence.

Well, recently i am getting more and more lethargic.
Decided to do alot of things.
Main point is i wanna stop what am doing now.
It's stupid. Just gonna wash my hands off things.

Time to stop trying and understanding some stuff.
I am just not a nice person.
No more deep thoughts for me. Just gonna rest for now.

What matters most was my old cliques and my career.
Gonna change my lifestyle for a better.
This few weeks i just felt myself getting weaker.
Maybe health isn't that well i guess.

Hoping to do a full body check up soon.
And one more important thing, I am very grateful to have a brother like Renjie.
Even if we knew not long enough. But he understands me.
Talking to him, sharing stuff with him and hanging out with him and his cliques is very fun and interesting. Simply, i just feel ease.
He is a thoughtful brother and caring one too.
He said that he will accompany me to do a full body checkup if i have the money already. I'm so glad in a way.

Other then him, there are other brothers and sister who loves me and care for me.
And even friends. Just wanna thanks them so so much for being with me even if they are there or not. It has been a great time guys.

You guys have been part of my life like a family. I appreciate whatever you guys have done (: You guys are the most beautiful people i have ever met. Faces of you guys will always printed in my heart. Just simply love you guys for who you are and accepted the me for who i am. A big thanks to you all <:

Well, will blog soon. Feeling abit tired now.
Hope to get my dream cam soon.
Ciaos for now.

Labels: Time to lay low.

I thought for quite some time since monday.
And as i thought. I couldn't hold grudges for long.
Plus, I don't really hate anyone.
I just need to give myself a chance.
Taking a gamble for now.

I decided some things that would change myself.
But its just a trial.
I'm still not sure how far could i get.
But I wanted to see it for myself.
I just hope i could get over my past.

Pray hard that my trial would hurt much.
Giving myself a chance for now.
Rather then me rewinding those smiles by myself.
I could see things more clearly now.
Just hoping.

Gonna meet K later.
Ciaos.
Wish myself luck.

Labels: Decision make.

Once again, i chose to revive my blog,
though i am just always saying that i wanted to blog again.
But now, other then this blog, I don't really wanted to say things out to anyone like how i was used to be. I just wanted to voice it out here.
If anyone bother to read it that is (:

Well, time really pass by fast. Lots of things happen.
Many unexpected things happens too.
I have never felt so shocked before.
Guess that, i didn't see that coming.

What is it like to fell in love, feel love or even, someone knew your presence.
It seems like i have always reckon others presence but neglect my own presence instead.
I won't mention names but i will just put it as 'K'. I bet he knew himself.

I doesn't deserve such good treatment from him though. Cause i knew myself, I just couldn't accept that love given. Im just not ready enough. I don't force or begged others to stay by my side. Quite pathetic as i could say. I just want a simple life.
I could see the effort he put, the changes he made. But no matter what, he is still young. I prefer maturity and speaks with confidence. It hurts to say. But i can't see myself with him.

But sometimes, im just felt so bitch! Sometimes i wish i could hug him or stuff. But that was just using. I often restrain myself from doing that. I can be cruel sometimes. But he doesn't care. Why bother to care and concern without any return?
It was as good as suicide. Maybe i still can't accept that the fact that his past love life do shocked me. I felt insecure and scared.


I doesn't want to accept anyone else. Im shut to myself in my heart. Strong on the outer, weak in the inner. No matter what is coming for me. I will just push every guy away. At least, i don't have to decide who and the path i took. Pressure i guess. Unable to accept the thing called love.


I hope that I would walked out from my past as soon as possible.
Me, myself, is not sure when i will be able to walk out.
Just trying not to think, smiling as usual.
Time heals. Well, no exact time given when to stop. Will just have to keep walking.

Emo? Nahs, Not anymore.
Writing it out makes me feel less burden. Though it all sounds stupid.
But well, am myself. I don't need any others to approve the person i am.
Time for a break off the lappie.
Ciaos.

Labels: repeated mistakes

TIME TO GET REAL AND HANDLE MY LIFE SERIOUSLY.
NO MORE CHILD'S PLAY OR WHATEVER SHYT.
TIME TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AND NOT LOOKING BACK.

DETERMINED AND FINAL.
NO MORE CHANGES.
NO MORE DRAGGING PEOPLE IN TO MY LIFE.
SHOULDN'T HURT ANYONE ANYMORE.
NOT TO LET THEM WORRIED ANYMORE.

I SHOULD LEAD MY WAY.
AND I WILL.

Labels: Time to get real.